Time to do things on my own

I have been here in Virginia for a year now. I have struggled so much. I have been stressed most of my time here. I have been shedding for a while now and I have big bald patches on my head *sucks*. The balding is for another story.

You see, I came here in Virginia with my two kids who were then 5 yrs old and 8 months old and with 12 luggages. I was breastfeeding then since I was only 8 months post-partum. And everything just got harder and harder. The worries, the stress, the anxiety, all of it just keeps adding up and I felt very limited which was what I hated the most. I became very reliant to my husband very much so that even the things I am feeling, I need to get approval or affirmation (not his fault). It took me 8 months to book an appointment to the doctor because I just can't. I get very bad anxiety just thinking about talking to someone I don't know or doing something I know nothing about.

BUTTTT

Now, I decided to try to do things on my own. Because I know I can. So I have tasks I want to accomplish on my own:

1. Apply for a Virginia State Id - will need to do public transport for the first time as well

2. Book a follow-up appointment with my doctor and go there alone

3. Book an appointment with a psychiatrist and actually show up.

4. Wake up at 5am everyday and have my me time

5. Run everyday (in the morning)

I know these a small things to sum but for me it needs lots and lots and lots of courage. 

Hopefully, I get to do all these things.